livin’ my life like it’s platinum

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Back on January 2, 2019,I made a pact with myself that I was going to take as much care of myself as I could, to see if I could reverse the visible stress caused byour Hurricane Harvey ordeal. It’s been over 2 years, and I’ve kept my promise: I drink tons more water than I used to, I move way more than I used to, I’ve meditated every morning for the past 2 years on almost a daily basis. I rarely wear black anymore, preferring bright colours (today’s pale pink is an aberration). And the truth is, I notice a difference: I feel healthier and more even-keeled than I’ve felt in years. Admittedly, the fear of getting coronavirus has kept me focused over the last year — in the event I contracted the virus, I wanted to ensure that I was as healthy going into it as I could’ve been — but the fact is that even with the stressors that accompany being locked down for more than14 months (not to mention all the crazy going on in the world), I’ve held it together pretty well.

再过13周,我就54岁了,正式的年龄是55岁左右。虽然我对此没有意见——变老从来都不是让我沮丧的事情——但这足以让我的姐妹停下来思考。我是说,现在我感觉很好,我还能做什么来真正升级?如果我一头扎进了50多岁的年纪,生活会是什么样子:不再染发(当然偶尔会染发),更多的是冒险,而是100%按照我想要的54岁的样子和感觉生活,而不是像杂志或媒体,或者,好吧,有人说54岁应该是什么样子和感觉吗?

What if I ... *gasp* ... created what it looks and feels like to be in my mid-50s on my own terms?

So yesterday, I took the first step: I cut all my dyed hair off. I read somewhere recently that by the age of 50, most women are at least 50% grey (who knew, right?). So cutting my hair off, for the first time ever (because let’s face it, I’m always cutting my hair off), felt like a bit of an act of resistance. It was a revelation: I had more silver than I remember. (For the record, the images in this post make my hair look more-salt-less-pepper than it does in real life; however,the photos I took yesterdaylook more-pepper-less-salt than in real life. Imagine something in between, and you’ll get the idea.) And it felt kind of …badass, honestly. Like, wiser. More confident.Sparkly.

And like a woman who is not to be trifled with.

So, that’s step one handled. I wonder what’s next. The world is getting more and more vaccinated, so who knows — maybe some more adventure is around the corner.

Checkpoint.

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Soundtrack: Golden by Jill Scott